Day 5 beckons. Once again I don’t want to get up but I’m feeling more positive today. The training is almost manageable and the leg pain has gone. I can do this! Heading to breakfast I realise it rained last night. In fact, it’s still raining. It’s a pleasant change. The village is less dusty and it smells a bit more pleasant. Breakfast is egg fried rice and various accessory dishes. One thing I noticed in my limited time in China and Vietnam is that breakfast dishes are not as exclusive as in the west. We have specific foods that we eat at breakfast and specific foods we never eat at breakfast. Stir fried veg and egg fried rice, that’s not what’s for breakfast. Well it is here! We head to training and the standing begins.its as intense as usual. After every correction I take a trick I learnt from John and use objects in the room to line up my height. I can just see a bit of glass in that window above the boxing ring ropes when I’ve been corrected. Ok, that’s my target. I would like to say it’s so I can maintain my height but generally it’s more so I can simply have a goal to get back down to by the time my next correction comes. He tucks my chin in, sinks me down, straightens my back, pushes my chin in and corrects a side wards lean that I don’t quite fully understand. I explore this feeling of trying to attain a physical posture that I can’t comfortably maintain. Can I uncomfortably maintain it? Am I willing to uncomfortably maintain it? How long for? Why not? What is the mechanism within my brain that drives me to avoid this pain and discomfort? Why don’t I have more control over it? How weak willed am I? I don’t care, it hurts. I ease up a little and rapidly alternate between two sets of muscles deep within my leg, somehow it makes it more bearable, at least in my mind. I try to succumb to the pain but I still end up doing something about it. I go up and then try to go back down again. Does he think I should be able to stay at the height he puts me at? What does he think of me when he has to push me down again. Should I really be here am I out of my depth. There’s a lot of time to think when you’re trying not to and also dealing with a standing correction. Soon it’s over and training resumes. Lunch comes and Kim, David, Davidine and myself hang back. Kim is doing an article on training with Chen ziqiang and has asked me to take photos. I have brought my trusty Canon as I do on every trip and taiji seminar and am happy to do so. It’s going to be in an article, so I’ll be a published photographer! Unfortunately he’s busy but says tomorrow as the weather will be nicer and we’ll have better lighting. He has a point. It’s a dreary day. We high tail it lunch and then a nice nap. Perhaps because it’s Saturday the street hawkers arnt blaring out the usual inane sounds. Hooray I think. Later on a couple of five year old kids start. Letting off fire crackers beneath our window. So that was nice. Soon we drag ourselves out of bed and prepare for more standing. We are approaching the kicks of section two. They, at least, are the same as laojia, so I’ve got a bit of a foundation to work with. Xiaoxing’s kicks are excellent and I try to emulate them as well as possible. After demonstrating, then leading us, then getting his son to lead us, we practice on our own, I go up and ask a couple of questions and he attempts to hammer knowledge into my head. It’s slow going. We run through the whole form to the point we’ve got up to a couple of times and then he releases us to hobble away. Dinner involves rice soup and stir fried veg. We eat with abandon. Rich and I head back and scoff some salmon jerky, (tasty!) pringles and oreos. What sounds like a dog being throttled can be heard from outside. As I head out to call my darling wife, Yvonne is trying to find where the noise is coming from. It seems to be in front of ziqiang’s room. We peer into a box and find a small puppy, so young its eyes aren’t open yet. It’s whining. I pet it and it quietens down. Ziqiang appears and puts a plastic bag under it. It seems that’s all he’s going to do. I don’t want to interfere so we back off. I have a chat with my wife and then head to bed. I’m almost finished the book reading and foolishly read to the end. So it’s 10:3o when I get to bed. It’s been a long day. It’s going to be a long night too. The dog is still yipping and whining.
Bright lights, big village




Dawn sees me a little despondent and very tired. Another night on my concrete slab does not lend itself to a good night’s sleep. I drag myself to breakfast and hope my fellow fast breakers don’t notice. Viki hasn’t joined us for breakfast, she has a good reason but I wish I’d done the same and slept in. Rice today, a pleasant surprise. I eat and we head back to the school. We have standing to endure. It’s as much of a struggle as ever but I feel I’
m a little more capable of enduring it today. The only problem is a pain down my leg as we train, ifs reminiscent of sciatica and I’m later informed its piriformis syndrome. This makes sense as the sciatic nerve. Passes through the piriformis, at least in some people, I think. I’m glad for the break when it comes. The training is as instructive as ever, getting through the standing and managing the training is worth it to train with a grand master. I reflect on the training and given that statement, the grandmaster can’t give you skill. He doesn’t tell me anything so ground breaking that I don’t already know. Viki comes to the village to train so that she can bring back the knowledge she gains and share it with her students. Then I remember that it’s not all verbal instruction. He shows us the moves over and over again. He demonstrates with perfect form,the Form. So perhaps I am gaining something more than Viki can impart. After all she wouldn’t keep coming back if it wasn’t the case. The thing that I do realise is that I won’t necessarily make huge gains in China, although I’m doing a lot of training with expert tutelage and fantastic corrections. Progress is not make watching the master, it’s applying the master’s teaching. That happens at home training or in the class grinding out repetitions of the form. That’s where the skill come in. Practice, day in and day out. That’s its own sort or bitter. Before lunch 7 head to the pharmacy to get some tiger balm or deep heat. I mime to the man my soreness and then rubbing it with cream. He offers me a strange cream, it looks like it may do the job. I’m later told its hormone replacement cream and I’ll probably begin developing breasts, I’m excited at the prospect, turns out they were joking.Lunch comes and goes. There is rice. It’s actually quite good. I have my customary nap and head to training, not before applying my boob cream. I also take an ibuprofen. The two Chinese students training with us have a bag with them. I’m sitting outside as they approach. My warrior shoes have arrived. They had to order from a different shop to get my size and the delivery has come first. I’m quite excited as I’ve been wanting to get a pair of these for a long time. I try them on and fortunately they fit. We weren’t sure they would. I’m very pleased I took the chance and asked for two pairs. I decide to wear them for training. I’m told jokingly they will make standing easier. They don’t. We survive training and head to dinner. This time the rice is hidden inside what David accurately calls gruel. The steamed bread we didn’t eat at breakfast has been deep fried and is quite nice. I have four slices. We head back to the street outside the school to shop. I find a book I’ve been looking for and Kim tries on a peach coloured shirt. She asks the opinion of a group of Chinese men watching us, they stare blankly until she says something in Chinese. They all smile and give her a thumbs up. We go outside and see a lot of activity outside the Chen family shrine. We’re not sure why. We all head back to our rooms. My. Room looks out over the entrance to the little street where the school, the shine and the famous ditch are located. It seems stalls have been setup, families are streaming in and some terrible music is being sung or played. It can’t possibly be recorded as I can’t imagine anyone would pay for such poor singing. I record it for posterity. I go outside to send my wife a message. I’m taken by the urge to investigate further. I back to the entrance to the shrine. People are buying tickets and going in. I go back to my room for my camera, I purchase a ticket and head in. Its festooned with lights, sexy pigs glowing with internal illumination. Giant lotus flowers and more. Await me in the normally serious Chen family shrine and museum. Music is playing and little diaoramas are set up. In one a pig man carries a princess. I can only assume its a scene from the journey to the west. I wonder what the grandmaster thinks of these shenanigans. The children are certainly loving it. I head into the taiji park and there are lights everywhere. A corridor of lights lead me to the famous taiji Square where I’ve seen photo of the ying yang symbol many times. Tonight it’s got a giant glowing tea pot on it. Not what I thought my first em experience of it would be. In the corner a stage is setup and music is blaring. I head closer, a magician is dismenbering a young lady. It’s a trick, he’s not some sort of psychopath. Well, he might be but I have no reason to think so. The crowd are enjoying themselves. I record some of it and then turn to go. I turn back when 8mi head him fire up a chainsaw. He’s going 59 dismember the young lady again, only she’s lying down this time. I reflect that I’d prefer to be dismembered l would prefer to do it lieing down as I’ve experienced enough pain standing the last few days. I head back out after this as I want to talk to my wife, I miss the sound of her voice (well, that and other things too but I can at least talk to her on the phone) we have a chat and it’s the highlight of my day.
Third times a charm

Kim, the American teacher who’s joined us on this trip, wrote a blog post during her lady visit to the village. It describes day three ,the day when you run out of puff, get put pushed to your limit and have to find some way to go on. I can’t say I quite had the experience she’s described, day three can happen later on. In her case it came on day 6. It was certainly a tough day though. It began with Richard, my room mate doing some activity. He’s an early riser and I’m a light sleeper. I don’t mind. I tried to go back to sleep. I had found sleep difficult last night. I favour sleeping on my stomach but had trouble because the weight of my legs on my thighs was enough to cause pain. They were really tender. Fortunately I was extremely tired.so I was relatively well rested this morning. The now established routine of breakfast was had and we moved inexorably to the next training session. We favour a weapons stand outside for our pre training gathering. We all stick our legs on it and stretch a little while we wait for the training hall to become available. We head on and soon the standing begins. I am corrected into a posture of pain. My general fatigue has got to a point where I can simply not manage to maintain the postion I’m placed in for more than a minute. The grandmaster does not take exhaustion or sore muscles into account when placing you in the desired position. He’s feeling for the capabilities of your body. What your structure and flexibility can manage. This does not always align well with what your muscles can ensure but regardless of where you are on your taiji journey, you will be shaking within minutes. I ease a little out of it but try to find a point where I can stay as close the original posture as possible while ensuring my legs don’t fall off in the process. The leaves me feeling slightly despondent. I have have been corrected and I cannot maintain it. It’s a little failure perhaps. Perhaps not a physical one as much as a mental one. What will he think when he next comes round to correct me. While he take this to mean I am not committed to my training or learning from him? Is everyone else doing the same thing, thinking the same thoughts? I don’t know. It keeps me trying to get back down there. I am left wondering if I have have the mental fortitude to truly persevere, to improve to the level of accomplishment I might like to attain in my lifetime. I think perhaps this is a skill as much as any in life but it is the tiger that stalks my dreams every day. Not only in taiji but everywhere. I’m not sure if it will eventually catch me and tear my throat out or I’ll stand my ground and shoot that kitty right in the face. Enough of that strained metaphor. Standing finishes and I try to resurrect my legs before we return to the form. Xiaoxing is as good as ever, after he calls our midmorning five minute break. He heads off to a funeral, he’s only gone about twenty minutes. We continue training in his absence. Two and a half days in and we’re nearly to the end of the first section. Given the number of days we have here, he seem to be pacing us well. Soon lunch is called and we head to our usual spot. Just before they though a gaggle of European faces peer at us through the glass in the door to our training hall. They are French and are just stopping by to sightsee. They are from a Chen taiji group, they gather in front of the building to have their picture taken with Xiaoxing. I wonder why the don’t stay and get some training in. It’s one thing to visit and be outside looking in, but they could train with one of the coaches here and experience the place from the inside. While we contemplate this, Viki and i turn our attention to the young Chinese students practicing applications. They are catching kicks and doing sweeps or perhaps low kicks, reminiscent of exercises we’ve done before with Viki in karate, which only goes to show why practicing karate can be a useful accessory to taiji, you actually get to hit people (and get hot) . We are all overjoyed (well except the vegetarian lurking in our midst) that we have been upgraded to a little meat. We are treated to a bit of chicken. It’s a very welcome surprise. Davidine insists well make sure it’s all eaten so the cook knows we liked it. There’s no chance of that not happening. I head back for my customary nap. We return to our scheduled programme with some more standing. It’s still painful, I’m still shit at it. Nuff said. Xiaoxing is still correcting me fortunately. He rushes over to correct my hand position right at the beginning of the form. I’m pleased I still qualify for attention. I try to ensure everything he’s corrected me on I do. Especially when he sits right behind me to watch us go through the first section. I am tired and struggle to get though it all but I try. Knowing he’s watching helps. Soon it’s over and the trap excitement of the evening is almost upon us. We’ve decided to ditch the cook and eat out. There’s a themed taiji restaurant in the new area and it looks very nice. We head in and are given a private dining room. Davidine confidently orders and we are treated to a feast (still no tea, only hot water) beef brisket, deep fried beef pancakes, winter melon soup. Aubergine in a delicious sauce, stif fried bacon and an entire chicken. Including feet and head. We gorge ourselves and then head to bed. We are all sated. I’d do that everynight. Another excellent day. I’d go into more detail but you probably don’t care and i’m too tired to go onBittersweet symphony
There is a much repeated phrase (at least in the circles I seem to run in) called eating bitter. It refers to how, if one is to make progress in their gong fu (which translates as hard work) l, one must eat bitter. That the training hard and painful effort yields results (no pain, no gain, perhaps?) . Today I begin to feel this saying, deep within my muscles. Its day two and my legs muscles are tender. They are sore when I poke them and walking down stairs is uncomfortable. I drag myself out of bed, brew some tea and head to breakfast. Today its broth with a bit of egg, boiled eggs and roasted peanuts. So par for the course really. Oh, there’s also steamed bread, which is filling if nothing else. I have a tracker bar when I get back to the room. I bought a box of 24 before leaving the UK. I also brought protein powder and have my first shake with some milk purchased from the shop below my room. There’s a distinct lack of meat in our diet. We later discover its because the last group was mainly vegetarian. Soon we have to start training and after a bit of warming up the standing begins. Chen Xiaoxing is gentle and I can smell the cigarettes he smoked when he adjusts my chin. It’s not an entirely unpleasant smell. He makes his rounds and then returns. Each time putting me lower and increasing the agony in my legs. After his first adjustment I’m immediately hot. The room is cold but my entire body is like a furnace. I can feel the heat rushing into my hands, they tingle with the increased blood flow. I note this pleasant result as a minor distraction from the burn in my legs. I’m discovering a routine to the standing session. After the second adjustment he leaves the room, come back in and wanders around the hall before m akin a final adjustment. He pulls me back, down and lengthens my spine. Straightening my lier back and removing any forward tilt. My chin is tucked in and my chest relaxed he pushes my arms and shoulders down. I attempt to comply. It’s hard. After adjustment 3 he claps and we are allowed to stop. 30 minutes have passed. We take a short break to commiserate each other’s suffering and then straight back into the form. There is a raised platform which he stands on to demonstrate. He points out essential tips on honthe execute the move and repeats for our benefit. Then we do it together. Finally he gets his son to lead and stealthily corrects. He spots me and comes over. He guides me through 5 moves. Holding my hands to guide them and keeping my waist low throughout. It’s stupidly hard. It’s also incredibly instructive. I think he will stop after one move but he continued then the next and the next. Eventually we hit aposture that requires me to go on one leg and that leg unexpectedly gives out, I’m more surprised than he is. We stop, he laughs and I bow and thank him. That correction alone is probably enough to make the trip worth it. David told me the day before that you don’t need to apologise to him for any deficiencies in your Taiji, that’s why we’re here. It’s only if you don’t try that he’ll have a problem. And then he would simply stop giving you corrections. So as long as I’m receiving attention like this, I feel I’m doing OK. I’m barely able to stand after this but we continue training for another 20 minutes before a five minute break is called. A fellow student comments on the ordeal and says she could mostly hear it but she felt for me after that. I felt for me! Soon we start up again. It’s hard but I persist. Mercifully lunch is called. Its rice! With veg and egg. It’s quite tasty, I have two bowls. I head straight back to my room and have a nap. Just outside my room is a loud speaker repeating the same stupid phrase every twenty seconds. I’m too tired to care about and a fall asleep. Just before my alarm goes off the sound stops, ah well. I buy a pack of faux maltesers and a Fanta knock off and head for training. This time after my first correction I’m in instant agony. It’s too much too handle. After a minute I ease out of it, as its simply too much for me to handle. He returns to correct me twice and each time. I’m a little embarrassed that he has to lower me again. My legs shake uncontrollably, I look at the person in front of me, the main organiser of the trip and she is shaking as much as I am. I feel slightly better. I am relieved when a break is finally called. I sit. We resume and go back to the form. It’s a tricky bit and we go over it numerous times. It’s hard going for me. But I have no choice but to continue. Xiaoxing demonstrates his fajin (hard, fast, powerful movements) and I’m amazed at his skill. Viki tells me I looked at him in awe as her performed his moves. He corrects some. Of my movements an is patient as I fail to grasp the subtleties he’s trying to impart. Eventually I get it. I am keen to finish but also to continue as the solo practice is so useful, going over a single move again and again. At the end he asks for questions and I ask a few. I’m normally vocal and inquisitive. We are told the cook is off tonight and get excited at the prospect of a good meal from a restaurant. Our hopes are dashed when discover Ziqiang has organised another cook. Its mostly made up over left overs from lunch as well as some chopped tomotoes with sugar (?) it’s not the most satisfying of meals. As we leave Viki suggests we go and get a little filled roll. I heartily agree. I’m burning an extra 2000 calories a day and not being fed enough. With no meat whatsoever. I need some protein. The roll is tasty but the hot sauce is a little too much. It does distract from the pain in my legs though. I want to visit the supermarket I’ve heard has been opened in shop. Yvonne is also keen to go. We go looking for it. After a good long walk. We don’t find it, Richard texts me and asks for the room key. We turn around defeated. After making it back to the room we discover he couldn’t find it either and it’s been shut down. My legs are unimpressed. I head back to my room to rest, blog and then hopefully talk to my wife. I’m looking forward to hearing her voice. Tomorrow is the infamous day 3. The day that requires you to dig deep and find something to help you make it. After day 2, I have no doubt I’m going to need a minor miracle to survive tomorrow. But first, I get to sleep. 

Standing room only





My bed is hard. Not hard like you might say about a cheap hotel bed, hard as if they had carved a block of wood and wrapped in cloth to pretend it was a matress. I am not exaggerating when I say it has no give at all. Given that, I still slept far better than I had expected to. We are staying in the old rooms but they have been renovated. They’re pretty good. There’s an AC unit for warmth. Multiple lights with switches above the bed and shelving units for me to live my detritus strewn around in. Really, it’s only the horrific mattresses for me to be sad about.Village people











Yellow crane spreads wings
I head back to my room and immediately lie down. Tomorrow we head to our intended destination. Tomorrow we go to the Village!





Day 0, the one that comes before the the actual first day
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